a completely emotionally draining weekend. lots and lots of words.

Oh my goodness, where do I even start.
This weekend has been crazy, terrifying, and completely reassured me that God has his hand on me.
Friday
It started on Friday, after work I went to Tylers with my brother Ryan to pick up Tyler (his car is broken) to go to his sister Alyssa's sweet sixteen. I was driving, and Tyler was directing me because the party was seriously in the middle of nowhere and I had no idea where I was going. So we go down Tyler's street and he tells me to make a left turn onto I-60. Left turns in general terrify me and make me completely nervous, but this was worse than usual because traffic was flying. I looked to my left, and there was a pretty decent gap, so I looked to my right, and it seemed as if there was a pretty decent gap too. So I pull out onto the highway and Tyler screams "KARASYN, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!" I then look to my right, and there is a car flying at us at 70 miles per hour.
This is where God stepped in.
The brakes in my car work, but they aren't the best. However they stopped on a dime. No skidding or anything. They just stopped the car perfectly. The other driver, was paying attention completely and was able to slam on his brakes and swerve around me just in time.
No one was hurt. The cars are completely fine.
At this point I pull over and start to bawl uncontrolably. I just about killed my boyfriend, my brother, and some person that I don't even know.
The other driver was incredibly nice, and even insisted that we have a group hug. He then wrote down my information and we both drove away.
I cried pretty much the entire way to the party, and when we got there, I told his mom and dad what I had just about done, and sobbed uncontrollably then. He seriously has the nicest parents in the whole world, because they were not mad at all. They just hugged me and told me how much they love me.
Alyssa's party was super fun though, we danced to a bunch of 80's songs and it was awesome.
Occasionally throughout the night I would start crying. I think I was still in shock.
Then I cried on the way back to Tylers house.
I cried when I got home and told my parents what had happened, and they weren't mad either.
I cried when I went upstairs, and got a text from Tyler telling me how much he loves me.
I cried when I got into bed because I couldn't get the *almost* accident out of my head.
I cried A LOT.

Saturday
I got up and washed my car and did some cleaning around the house, and then I went over to Tylers.
We hung out and talked and watched a very strange movie called AI, about artificial intelligence.
I felll asleep a lot, I don't know why, I was just particularly exhausted.
Then we went upstairs to eat dinner, which was delicious, his dad is a grill master.
I started feeling funny when I was sitting at the table, so I got up to put away my dishes, thinking that walking around would help me a little.
However, after I sat down my plate, everything went black and the next thing I know, I'm sprawled on the floor with Tyler about to call 911 and his mom wiping my face with a washcloth.
I guess I fainted, which was weird cause I've never actually fainted before.
His mom is a RN so she told me that I needed to make a doctors appointment right away to get myself checked out.
Then me and Tyler went back downstairs, and I felt completely normal, and the world was great once again.
I went home, and told my parents what had happened even though none of us were that concerned and I went to bed.

Sunday
This morning I woke up feeling perfectly normal, and went downstairs for breakfast and coffee.
My dad started talking to me about last night and everything that happened.
This is where is gets weird.
My heart started racing really really fast, and I couldn't catch my breath. I told my dad, and he tried to find my pulse, but he couldn't and by that time I felt fine. Then everything went black, and I started freaking out and I told my dad that I couldn't see and my mom came in and they tried to take me to the living room to lay down, but I proclaimed that I had to puke so they tried to lead me to the kitchen to the sink but I passed out in the doorway, and the next thing I know my mom is calling 911 and I'm freaking out because my favorite sweatpants that I am wearing have a hole in the butt and I want to change. So my mom brings down my other favorite pants, and the sheriff gets there, followed by and ambulance, a firetruck, and 3 of those official looking SUVs. They took all my vitals, and tell my mom that everything looks normal but to take me to the hospital immediately.
I tell my mom to call Tyler, and he showed up in like three minutes.
He is incredible. I had just woken up, so I had a complete bed-head, I hadn't washed my face, and had on zero makeup, and he still told me that I am beautiful, and how much he loves me. I love him so much.
So we drive over to the ER and they check me right in and have me put on one of those hideous hospital gowns. Then they put on the blood pressure cuff, and one of those glowing red finger things, and they put a bunch of patched on my chest and hooked me up to a heart monitor.
I felt like I was in some soap opera.
Then the lady came in to take a blood sample which I was terrified for, and Tyler held my hand and let me squeeze as tight as I wanted to, and it didn't really hurt at all.
Then the doctor came in again, and told me that they are pretty sure that everything is fine, but that I need to go to my realy doctor this week to see if I need a heart monitor.
This weekend has been pretty emotionally and physically draining, but it's all good, and I'm trusting completely in God.

emotions often overwhelm me.

So I read a lot of blogs, and it seems like everyone these days is pregnant.
Someday I want a baby.
I want one soooooo bad it is not even funny.
Not now, but some day when I am married and me and my husband decide that we are financially stable, and fully prepared to bring a life into this world.
I haven't listened to Regina Spektor lately, but today she came up on my iPod with her song "On The Radio" and there was one line that really stood out to me.
It goes like this...
"and you take that love you made, and stick it into some, someone else's heart, pumping someone else's blood"
Thats what a baby is. It is a product of love. Everything that is in that baby, is the love between you and your husband.
I think that is absolutely incredible.
Someday I'm going to be a mom to a precious, wonderful, baby that is a result of the love between me and it's daddy.
wow.
all of this completely overwhelms me.

sidenote: NO i am not pregnant. AT ALL. If I was pregnant, I assure you that it would be a complete miracle, and I was giving a virgin birth to jesus' brother or sister.

getting lost,love,and yumminess.

so last night after church, the college group went to Orange Leaf.
sidenote: orange leaf has the BEST froyo in the world! Cake Batter, Strawberry, and Coffee Lover, are to die for. but not mixed. that=ew!
I had never driven to Orange Leaf before so I was quite clueless on how to get there, so I asked directions from a friend. I assured her multiple times that I knew what I was doing and that I would get myself and Tyler there safe and sound.
I suck at directions apparently.
because Tyler and myself found ourselves on the way to Branson.

Here is the story...
So we were supposed to take Glenstone to Republic Road. However instead of winding up on Republic Road, we ended up on the ramp shooting us out on to I-60!
I HATE HATE HATE highways. So I start freaking out and I couldn't breathe, so Tyler told me to pull over and he would drive. He is so kind. Seriously. I love him.
ANYWAYS. so it's super dark out and neither one of us know where in the heck we are,becaus e we are on like the waaaaaayyyyyy south side now, and I am a northsider, and he is a Willard person, so there ya go.
Somehow we end up on highway 65 taking us to Branson. About this time I am sobbing and hicupping uncontrollably and wailing about how I am the most terrible girlfriend in the entire world and Tyler is cool as a cucumber and has me call his mom, who I sob and wail to as well, and she directed us back and we ended up at Orange Leaf safe and sound.
good story right?
last night I hated this whole event, but I'm already laughing about it, and it will be a good story to tell the kiddos one day :)
After all of this happening, I loved Tyler even more than I already did which is a whole stinkin lot! It's so amazing how perfectly matched we are for each other.
I never thought that I would meet a guy that would willingly put up with my outrageous dramatics, extreme emotions, and complete craziness.
But Tyler does. and he does it because he loves me.
knowing that he loves me is the best feeling in the whole entire world. This time last year, I didn't even believe in love really. I thought that guys were all jerks, and that no one could ever love me for who I am.
It's so funny how God proved me so wrong. I should be used to that though, he does every time :)

interupting sloth, a fine frenzy, and cold

yesterday was a great day!
I had to work from 8:30-2:30 which I though was going to be a complete pain in the butt. However, I was working with my old friend Corey, so it turned out to be a very pleasant six hours of looking up funny youtube videos, facebooking, recapping Jonas L.A. and becoming a spider sollitaire master.
then I came home and made myself some ramen noodles. I LOVE ramen. It's not just the whole "oh boo hoo I'm in college and poor so I'm going to sob over these nasty noodles" thing obviously, because I live with my parents. It's because I LOVE them. notice the all caps. That means it's serious business.
After I got done eating those delightful things, Tyler came over and hung out and it was a fun time, as it always is whenever I am with him! hurray.
so I told him this joke that goes like this...
"knock knock"
"whos there"
"interupting sloth who?"
(at this point, I just pointed my finger at him and moved it very slowly because sloths a very slow and I don't even think that they make noise. however Tyler insists that they make a waaaaaaaaaaaaaa sound. or something, I do not know!)
anyways, so apparently Tyler finds this joke absolutely hillarious because every time I would do it, he literally collapsed into a fit of giggles. It is so adorable.

I like pictures that make me feel warm and fuzzy inside :)

now it's sunday, and this morning I went to church like normal, which is always good to do :)
then I came home, and I've done some homework and now I'm listening to my Fine Frenzy playlist on pandora and trying to make a collage, though obviously I got distracted ;)

OH! so I was looking for some cute pictures on We Heart It this afternoon, and I got a dreadful pop up. So I know that I'm probably waaaaayyyy behind on this, and it is old news to everyone but myself, but apparently Miley Cyrus gave a lap dance to the FORTY FOUR year old producer of the last song at the wrap party! this made me quite sad, because secretly, I like Miley Cyrus, as forementioned in a recent post. So naturally I youtubed her, and I watched a video that she had posted from her channel where she said all these stupid rumors weren't true, and she looked so unskanky, that I couldn't believe that I had really just seen a video of her giving this old guy a lap dance.
ugh. I am torn

See?? She goes from completely adorable to trashy.
ugh I miss the good ole days of hannah montana.

Its starting to get cold outside! This makes me happy :)

chinese food, coca cola, and robin hood.

school was okay today I suppose.
english= reading a story and being dismissed after twenty minutes. which was niiice.
computer apps= doing a step by step easy peasy in class assignment.
pls= completely bombing a pop quiz, and talking about the new law in missouri against strippers.
speech= I'm not really sure.I started doodling and daydreaming, and hardly listened a bit. shame. on.me.

Lunch was great through! My wonderful wonderful boyfriend Tyler, (geeez I could not be more cheesy) rescued me from spending three hours by my lonesome, and took me out to lunch. and the sweetest part is, that I got me my favoritest food in the world, which is chinese food. and he HATES chinese food. this also made me feel very guilty, but then he stopped and got himself a chicken sandwich so I didn't feel guilty anymore :)

then I went to work, which was okay. I had a huge headache so that sucked though. I don't know what is up with my headaches lately, but hopefully they will decide to stop making appearances! However, it did give me an excuse to stop by sonic and get a coke :)

then I went to Tylers house, and I played with his adorable dog chloe while he gave a guitar lesson, and then we watched Robin Hood. It was a lovely evening.

oh yes, if you say coca cola over and over again it is super fun! ...well at least to me...

ladeedah.

Today when I got home I watched the newest episode of Hannah Montana Forever.

I don't care how big of a skank Miley Cyrus is, I think she is hillarious and I LOVE that show.

After that I cooked some chicken nuggets, and ate an apple ever though I really really wanted fries, because we are learning about nutrition in Lifetime Wellness, and my appetite has flown the coop.

While I was eating I surfed around a bit on Netflix and found this random A&E Indie Movie called American Teen. I enjoyed it kinda, and it was suprisingly realistic.

then I had a headache and I took a nap.

funfun.

Now I really want to go to a flea market to find bags of vintage scrap fabric for a new project that I am working on, but I'm not feeling motivated enough, so I'm just going to sit here instead.

I am so lame.

healthtest, haircut, and pancakes

I guess that today was a fairly decent day. I had a health test to start it off, but I had studied super hard for it, so I was ready, and I think I did okay :)
There is this kid in my health class that seriously drives me insane.
My class starts at 8:30 and I usually get there at eight, which gives me some time to work on other homework, or review the chapter that we are going to be learning that day.
Anyways, so this kid is always sitting in the room when I get there, and EVERY SINGLE morning without fail, he is sitting in his seat with his laptop playing those super annoying cartoon network cartoons, at full volume, with no headphones.
It is absolutely rediculous.
Firstly: I just hate cartoons. I always have. When I was little, I refused to watch the cartoon tv shows, I would only watch shows with "real people in real life" this real people real life policy was taken out of effect however, when it came to Disney animated movies. I loved those guys. I still do. I watched Pochahontas for about the 30th time yesterday afternoon.
Secondly: He will laugh out loud while he is watching them. Not like, chuckle softly to himself, but seriously cackle like an evil villian type laugh, and then look around at us, like we all should be laughing too. It is rediculous.
And today it was just super annoying to me, because I was trying to go through my flash cards.
After those fun times, I trekked on over to Principles of Business, and we had a jolly time doing SWOT analysis on Krispy Kreme doughnuts. I loovvee that class. I know it sounds so boring, but my teacher is super awesome and fun, and makes learning business law feel as exciting as Jonas Brothers Concert, and the kids in my class are really cool too :) plus my business group got a perfect score on our cover letter. Yay Natural Exterior! Putting Nature Back In Nature.
After my school day was over, I walked to Drury to have lunch with some of my friends from the Olden days of Hillcrest and I had a chicken quesadilla and I vanilla ice cream cone! I love love love vanilla ice cream. I feel like such a plain jane saying that vanilla is my favorite, but I just love it so much!
Then I went back to OTC to go to work, which consisted of me loosing five games of bubble shooter, and escorting some frenzied C BASE testers to their seats in the testing lab. such fun.
Then I came home, and my mom was making pancakes for dinner, which I love very much! mmmm mmmm good :)
Now here I am lying on my bed and typing this, and I think that I will make a flower headband or something because my fingers are itching for something to do.
woooo!

oh yes, I love my haircut. Its kinda shorterish, but it feels so healthy and shiny and bouncy! :)