In the middle of my little mess, I forget how big I'm blessed.

as I have mentioned on here before, I am a chronic worrier. I worry about every single little thing. Lately I've been worrying about getting every thing ready for a HUGE event that is going to take place about a year from now. The thought that in a little over a year, I am going to be completely independent of my parents has a habit of freaking me out. 
Last week, I let little things annoy me. I also let Satan get to my heart, and completely discourage me that everything will work out. I have a hard time putting my full trust in God somethimes (correction:MOST of the time) because I have a really hard time trusting in something that I can not see. I know that's a lame excuse, but it's true. I'm the kind of person that needs things laid out in front of me so I can see how everything will work out. However, I know with all my heart that God is going to be with us all of the way.
I'm trying my hardest to follow God in this. I know that a lot of  people think that mine and Tylers plans are absolutely crazy. Getting married at 20 while we're both still in college, is probably something that most people think is stupid and careless. But after spending this whole weekend praying, and really truly seeking God's will in all of this together, we are more sure than ever that this is what God wants of us. I know that he is going to use both of us in amazing ways together. I am so excited.
I know that the first several years are going to be rough. Don't think that I don't! I don't think that marriage is just a fun game of "house" and that we can always go running back to our parents when things get hard. Both of our families are being SO supportive though, and have told us repeatedly that they are gonna be here for us whenever.
Like I said, I know people think that we're crazy kids who just wanna go play house for a while. That is the opposite of true. Tyler is my one true love, that God put on this earth just for me. To help me, and to show me a picture of Gods love. I know that people think it's crazy because we're each others first boyfriend and girlfriend. But that is what I prayed for ever since I can remember praying for my future husband. I LOVE TYLER. and I am so over caring what people think.
Not many people follow this blog, but if you are reading this post, could you please keep Tyler and I in  your prayers? It would be very very much appreciated :)